My very special one :)

When we were young, we just love to play, sing, dance or whatever we want, we are free. isn’t it?  As we grow older different people come to our way. Of course our parents, siblings and friends are always there for us. But as time goes by there is this person who will be behind us for the rest of our lives. I can still remember when i was a kid, i was being tagged as ugly, maybe because im fat, dark, lousy, etc. i did’nt mind that because i was just a kid. But when i entered high school everything changed, i tried to fixed myself, or in short i want to be beautiful, because i do have a crush..hahahaha.. i thought the guy who i want did’nt like me at all, but when he knew that i liked him, he courted me and i ended up falling to him. our relationship did’nt work out because i want it  secret but he doesn’t want,…and there were many things we  argued most. We didnt have  a date or any sweet moment together. Hahahah is this  PUPPY LOVE? hmmp..  But after a year i saw him with other girl and really it felt hurt……… But i tried to move on…i thought no one would like me because im a busy kind of person, i focused more on my studies and ofcourse to my family. But a guy named VAN came to my life, actually he is my seatmate, i really hate this man because he is not the kind of person i want, because he dressed like a gangster, he wore eye liner, and he loved to wear accessories, and he is not gentleman.  He courted my friend for almost a year, imagine a guy like him can court for a year, but my friend didn’t like him, so he courted my best friend’s sister but then like i said she did’nt like it too, after so many courtships. He courted me, i thought he was joking because i’m not the person he likes, and i disregarded him, but he tried his best to get my attention.When we graduated highschool, he followed me, it has been a year and half , he never stopped until i said YES. Yes we were in relationship, and im not that serious to take our relationship to that very deepest level, but as the years went by, i really felt that this was very different.  A feeling that can make you mature. Van is a very lovely man. He will do everything to make me happy even i used to hurt him, still he will say sorry instead of me. I  admired his personality. Everytime im alone he is there to make me happy, he gives me a shoulder to cry on, a shoulder to lean on., (OMG i was crying to remember all this things). I really love this MAN.  Million Thanks is not enough for me to express my gratitude to him because i owe him everything.  He changed me to the extent that i clearly see how life is important, how to honor God, how to live my life, how to get rid of jealous, everything.. And now the he is away from me,  because he is a SEAMAN, i can’t imagine my life without him, i missed him a lot, it is hard for us because we seldom communicate, i dont know what is happening to him at this point of time, that i even blame the telecommunication companies that charge too much to those who are in abroad that we really need to save money, in order to have this communication.. I know we are not married to react this way but having been away from the person you really love more that yourself, it’s difficult, really difficult, you will realize all the things that you do, even small things.. OMG i miss you so much.. i hope we can surpass this challenge that God gave us.. I just want to say to this person..Thank you and I will always here to wait and to love you.. May God always watch you……I love you so much.<3

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